LO VOY A LOGRA

Ohhhhhhh it’s been such a long time, but I am here.

I’m alive, I am awake and I’m blessed, despise all the bullshit. I’ve been working like crazy and I’m in school full-time. That’s not my excuse on why I haven’t posted any blogs. But to be honest with you I was too scared to post again. Why? Because You can have very judgmental people when you are pouring your heart out. For the most part everybody reading has been so supportive and so loving towards my blogs. I have friends and even WordPress strangers tell me that I encouraged them and that they feel heard. I know you can connect with me as I can with you. 

The last few years have been a hard journey, however I have grown in some weird way. I should make time to write because this is so therapeutic for me and somehow hope that this blog can make you smile in your darkest days or even make you laugh when you’re having the best day ever!!!

In the last few years a lot has changed. I switched positions. I’m no longer in OC or in a big girl position. I stepped down to be a medical assistant and nothing else. #FuckPaperwork!!

I’m in school full-time. I’m finally pursuing my nursing degree as an RN. I went back to my old job and they accepted me wonderfully, and I’m so blessed for that.

But where should I start with this blog. 

I felt like I needed to write. I’ve had friends ask me why I have neglected my blog, but I have had a hard time pouring my heart out and posting it online. I hope there is a way to touch everyone who reads this!!

Alright but let’s get to nitty-gritty what have you guys been doing? What’s the tea? What’s the drama lol I’m just kidding, but am I really? Hahaha

I have realized that life isn’t so beautiful, I find myself overwhelmed all the time. I’m always  tired and I am sick of school. I hate studying for hours and hours, I hate being gone for hours at a time for class, I hate missing soccer games, I hate feeling like I neglect my family because the only thing I do is study and work. I’m supposed to do about 40 hours of school work a week, on top of my 40 hour of work. (I am in an accelerated program)  

However, in some weird way, I find myself being stronger than I think I have ever been. My husband and my kids are the ones that keep me going.

To be honest with you, I didn’t even know where this blog was supposed to go, but something just told me to write! What I have learned on this journey, is that this life is not a life for everybody. Everyone has a different dream.

I have encountered people/family that tell me that I’m not gonna make it. I’ve been told becoming an RN is way too hard and out of my league. I am constantly reminded it’s too hard for me because of my epilepsy brain damage. (YUP I said what I said, I have brain damage from all the seizures I have had!) But that’s a whole different blog lol! I have even convinced myself that maybe I’m not strong enough. Every time I wanna quit or cry my eyes out, I am reminded that I have to keep going! Como dijo Chico Pacas y Fureza Regida #Dijeron que no lo iba logra!!!

Every day I’m at school, and I am like why the fuck am I here. Then I ask myself, am I really content with being a medical assistant? I love what I do, don’t get me wrong I FUCKIN SAVE LIVES DAILY, I help cure people of skin cancer! WHERE ALL MY DERMIES AT? Y’all  know what’s up!  As a medical assistant in dermatology we do so much more than people know!!!!! We assist in everything that revolves around skin, and skin cancer, we do surgeries, we room all of our patients by ourselves, and we are in the room with the provider 100% of the time as we dictate ALL their notes. 

Don’t get me wrong. I love what I do. There is alot that we as medical assistance do. I don’t think that we get the credit we deserve. We work hard as fuck and we kick ass, but we can’t push meds!!!! I said what I said!!!

To all my fellow nurses please don’t get mad or offended! We as medical assistants are also very knowledgeable, a lot of times we can diagnosis patients before the providers see them, (of course we don’t give the provider or patient the diagnosis) but we see these concerns from patients so often. 

But I’ve always wanted more! I want to be more hands-on!! 

As a medical assistant in dermatology we do so much. We literally sit there and hear the doctor with all their diagnosis and their regimen for the patient. We have to dictate in such a specific way that it can sometimes become overwhelming, however, SHOUT OUT TO ALL OF MY FELLOW MEDICAL ASSISTANCE, WERE FUCKING KILLING IT!!!!

I don’t even know what the fuck I’m rambling about, but I just know that as medical assistance were fucking doing the best that we can and everyone that looks down on us I have 1 thing to say is 🖕People need to know and realize that we hold down the fort. We try our hardest, we bust our asses and we love what we do. But still aren’t consider nurses 🤦‍♀️ 

I know that I practice with the upmost integrity, and I value my morals and care for my patience as if they were my own family. I do what I do because I love it. 

It’s just time to make a change in my book and write a new chapter.

Love and miss u all!!!!!